I can't take it

You talk to many guys, you have many guy friends. Obviously I will be jealous. Any guy in my position will say the same thing. Sigh.
You don't see me talking to many girls or chatting with them alot. Maybe that's why you feel safe or smtm. But for me? No. Even if you said that their just friends and that their nothing to what I am to you. I still feel jealous..

Everytime I talk to you online about it you don't like it. You say you're moodless then go off straight away making me feel like one asshole. Yeah I know I brought it up, sorry that you went moodless but going off staight away like that? You're like pointing the guns right back at me.

Friends before me.. where does that put me? You don't wanna hold my hands with your friends alr its like.. nvm. ah fml.

sad?

I feel sad. fuck.


sigh.

We aren't spending enough time together anymore.. sigh.

I hate the way you go off on me. I hate when you don't reply my text. I hate how you treat me when you're with your friends, like I'm not even there. Why is it so hard?
Its always me. Not you. I've had it. I won't text you. I'll let you be. I'll be ALONE. It fucking hurts. I don't know what to do anymore. sigh


I'm the worst bf..

sigh

It's me

It's always me. Im to blame for everything. Okay? Every time we argue it's not like I want it to happen.. sometimes I think it's the way you look at it. You think I've changed this and that. Fine I'll just keep quiet. But when I try to make it up to you, trying to get your attention back by texting you, you don't reply me. You give me the cold treatment. You always say this 'sorry...bye'. You know how hurting that can be? You know how I feel? I know I'm not the best boyf for you. I can't be perfect. I just can't. No one is perfect. I've been through too much shit alr. I love you, that's why I don't have the heart to ignore you. Maybe this is happening because I'm jealous? Idk. Maybe it's cause I'm from a guy's school. sigh. I don't have much friends, but you have alot. People who cares for you. I doubt for my case no one cares at all. I'm a loner. Always was and always will.
I tear when we argue because I hate it. It's all my fault.. I don't need anyone to care for me anymore. I'd rather be alone... sigh.