do you know how much I fucking miss you? I, too miss all the happy times together with you. I don't mean to cause hurt and pain to you but somehow I just had to let it all out. I've been giving in too many times.

I assured you that I won't do anything to hurt you and whatnot but no, you just had to think I'm like the other guys just saying it. just throwing it out there. I mean what I say. you think I'm lying.. I can't help it? all I can say is I know what I'm saying is true and I keep my word.

now you deactivated fb and twitter etc. what is this? it's clubbing and its just ONE time. you're showing me attitude, ignoring me. fine go ahead. talk to your guy friends. complain all you want. isn't that what you've been doing all along? you say I take you for granted. how about you?

All this things that is happening revolves around you. cause most of the time is about you.

now what? thinking of going back to your country? just because of this? ONE TIME CLUBBING? WITH MY GUY FRIENDS? DON'T TELL ME IT'S A DIFF CASE ETC. I DON'T BUY IT.

BECAUSE DEEP DOWN YOU DON'T TRUST ME AT ALL.

I really really wished you were by my side now.. I miss you so fucking much but this is happening.. so I'll just let you be..

who am I kidding. the fault always lies with me. fml.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. imy

I WON'T LEAVE YOU. I'VE SAID IT MANY TIMES. WHY WOULD I DO THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE. I LOVE YOU. NO MATTER WHAT WE'RE GOING THROUGH.