sad?

I feel sad. fuck.


sigh.

We aren't spending enough time together anymore.. sigh.

I hate the way you go off on me. I hate when you don't reply my text. I hate how you treat me when you're with your friends, like I'm not even there. Why is it so hard?
Its always me. Not you. I've had it. I won't text you. I'll let you be. I'll be ALONE. It fucking hurts. I don't know what to do anymore. sigh


I'm the worst bf..

sigh

It's me

It's always me. Im to blame for everything. Okay? Every time we argue it's not like I want it to happen.. sometimes I think it's the way you look at it. You think I've changed this and that. Fine I'll just keep quiet. But when I try to make it up to you, trying to get your attention back by texting you, you don't reply me. You give me the cold treatment. You always say this 'sorry...bye'. You know how hurting that can be? You know how I feel? I know I'm not the best boyf for you. I can't be perfect. I just can't. No one is perfect. I've been through too much shit alr. I love you, that's why I don't have the heart to ignore you. Maybe this is happening because I'm jealous? Idk. Maybe it's cause I'm from a guy's school. sigh. I don't have much friends, but you have alot. People who cares for you. I doubt for my case no one cares at all. I'm a loner. Always was and always will.
I tear when we argue because I hate it. It's all my fault.. I don't need anyone to care for me anymore. I'd rather be alone... sigh.